365 Days Ago..

Wow, I don't really know where to start except for I have been doing a lot of thinking today. It was a year ago to this hour that I was in the emergency room after a motorcycle accident. At first I did not really think into it. I figured it was kind of ironic that we would hit a dog in the middle of Lansing. Later I was to the stage that I couldn't believe God would allow this to happen to me. This was supposed to be the biggest year of my life. I was going to finish my track season as the captain of the team, walk down the aisle at graduation, and then head off to college. My dorm room was paid for at MSU. My plans were set. God had a different plan. He was going to stretch me physically, emotionally, and spiritually. And that he did.
Showing weakness is one of the hardest things for me. I had to sit back and watch my sister have loads of fun her last few days of high school with our friends, sit on the side lines of prom with my crutches as my only date, watch everyone zoom by me as they were planning our open house, and much, much more. Instead of being at school with my friends, I was lying in bed. Of course it wasn't too bad when they were all studying for finals, I was playing Go Fish with Ethan. (We became pros at card games)
Becaue of the small campus and my sister attending Spring Arbor University, I decided it was the place for me. I knew I was going to have a second surgery over Christmas and the smaller campus would make life a bit easier. I am sure Jess sometimes hated everytime I asked her for help, but she never showed it. (God may have stretched her as much as me!)
At first I did a really good job of putting on a mask, that nothing bothered me. After a few weeks into college I realized I put on the happy face for too long, hoping no one would really notice how much I hated not being able to participate in everyday activities.
Hopefully life will sometime get back to normal. This week was an encouragement because I was able to run for the first time. In two weeks I have a doctors appointment so I can get a knee brace. Then I will be able to play volleyball.
I thank God continuously for even being able to walk at all. I realized I took for granted being able to take a single step. That also reminds me of the amazing family that stuck with me and still does when I am having a bad day. Mom and Dad filled up my ice packs and gave me medicine at the craziest hours at night. I don't think they got much sleep for a long time. My mom always said she "became one" with my leg. When I was having a bad day, Mom and Tricia would make me laugh by saying, "You'll be alright!" They knew it would make me smile.
Through all the tears and questioning I have learned to keep trusting God. He is in control of my life.

You know you go to a Christian college when...

Only at Spring Arbor University would there be a Root Beer Kegger Party!!!

Here's Your Sign!!!

Today was registration day for 2005/2006 academic year. The doors opened at 8:30am. I got in line at 7:00 and was about 15 people from the door. When one of the registration workers walked by he asked, "So, who was the first person here?" Duh, wouldn't the first person here, be the first one in line? Here's your sign!

My New Favorite Song

My Glorious-
Delirious?
The world's shaking with the love of God
Great and glorious, let the whole earth sing
And all you ever do is change the old for new
People we believe that

God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!

Clouds are breaking, heaven's come to earth
Hearts awakening let the church bells ring
And all you ever do is change the old for new
People we believe that

My New Baby

This is the new arrival on our farm, Cooper. He weighs 96 pounds. Last night I was supposed to give him his shots, I pulled the cap off the needle, and freeked out. I couldn't hurt him. Then we had to give him his ear tattoo and ear tag. It was really sad. But he is super cute and really nice!!!

WOW!!!

Today was officially, "Beat up on the Country Girls".
~First of all, I was telling Shauna my weekend plans.
1. Mow Fairways
2. Attend a pig meeting
3. Dig up irrigation heads
4. Fill steers' water tanks
5. Wash my steers
"Wow, you country folk are way superior to us mediocre city people." ~Shauna

~ Second, Jess, Lydia, and I decided to do sit ups in my room. We don't like to listen to the
cheesy work out music on the video tape, so I play my playlist off of Windows Media. My
favorite country song comes on, "Little Moments". This is kind of a love song, so its slow.
"I don't think I have ever worked out to country music." ~Lydia (my roommate)

I guess not everyone loves country music (tricia:). That's all right. I'll stick to washin' steers and listening to my awesome country music.

Me and My Bro

Weather Person

I think I am going to become a meteorologist. I could have told you last night it was going to rain. Not because I am psychic, but because my knee hurt like heck. I couldn't believe it. I always heard that happening to older people, but come on, I am only 18. My knee also sucks because right now everyone is going to go jump on someone's trampoline, but I can't. Also, the girls go either rollerblading or running everyday. Guess who can't do that either! ME!!!
Sometimes I wonder why things happen to people. Like why did I have to go skidding down Cedar Street or why does my aunt have to have cancer? Hmmm....

Seriously!!!

Okay, who really goes to bed at 11pm on a college campus. Last night I got yelled at by the girl in the room next to me. Apparently I was talking on the phone too loud. Give me a break. It is only 11!

3.30.05

Last night I told Matt that Jessica had bought roller blades. After Jess tried them out, I thought I should give them a try. Nevermind the fact that I have a screwed up knee with not all my ligaments in the right spots. Matt told Wanda, his mom. She then told him, she would be right back. She had to run to the store to buy "Get Well Cards" for me and Jess.

Why does everyone think we are so accident prone?!?!?!?!

Sleep Deprivation

Today in Psych we learned about sleep deprivation. As our prof was giving the lecture on sleep, most of us were falling asleep! I think I have a serious case of this!

"Sleep"by Riley Armstrong
Album: Riley Armstrong
Artist Info: Discography
Song Clip: Real Audio

looking straight at the light
it never used to be that bright last night
but it's a new day with fuzz in my eyes
alarm is still ringing when I open the blinds
how do these people do it
they are like driving around like there's nothing to it
I imagine it's like the medication their on
or probably just the coffee but
one thing is certain in life
and that is that today I'm going to eat cereal
I mean come on let's get our priorities straight
but before I know it I'm out the door late
just trying to catch some rat or some race
or something I'm not quite sure what it is
so for now I just best keep moving
and by nine a.m. my brain and my body
finally decide to meet
and we come to the same conclusion as yesterday
that I never get enough sleep

{chorus}:sleep, no I never get enough
always waking up tired
sleep, no I never get enough
if I don't show up I might get fired
sleep, no I never get enough
always waking up tired
sleep, no I never get enough
if I don't show up I might get fired

Spring Break is Over :(

My Spring Break was not the most exciting, but very relaxing. I did lots of stuff...
1) Shop, Shop, Shop
2) Worked at MSU
3) Observation Hours at Dansville
4) Hung out with the coolest cousins in the world!!!
5) Saw Justine, Ashley, and Cory
6) Watched Brent win a 3 on 3 Bball Tourney and get into a fight
7) Got a cold...not fun!!!
8) Hung out with Paytons and Parents
9) Hung out with Matthew
10) Watched lots of XBox

Spring Is Here

SPRING BREAK!!!

Yippy...spring break is only two classes away. I don't have anything huge planned except for a lot of sleep:)

3.7.05

I walked into Gospels and Acts late today to hear from my fellow gals that we are going to drop out of school. They decided they we are going to drop out, get married, and have kids. There explaination..."Jesus didn't have to go to college. Why should we?"

Weekend Quotes

This weekend Jess, Cory, Emily, and I went home with Kate. We had tons of fun and actually a lot of sleep. Very relaxing!!!

"Well see... Laundry... that's something I just don't have money for." (Kate at the movie store begging for quarters)

"I'm not afraid of you since you made those oatmeal bars." (Emily to Kate's Dad, Phil, who could be a little intimidating until you get to know him.)

"The horse just violated me." (Jess after riding the Meijers pony.)

"So do you want anything from Jamaica?" (My cousin Kyle randomly calling to tell us he is on his way to Jamaica.)

DOGS ARE THE DEVIL!!!

I HATE DOGS!!! Tonight I was reminded of how much I hate dogs that run in the road.

1. In April I went skidding down Cedar Street because of a dog that looked like this one.

2. Two weeks later, Jessica got in a car accident because a dog was in the road in Holt.

3. This winter, Jessica Holeman went in the ditch in Minnesota to avoid a dog in the road.

4. Saturday while Jess, Jessica H., and I were on our way to a volleyball game in Bellevue, a dog was taking his time walking across the road right in front of us. Thankful we had enough time to stop.

5. On the way to a basketball game in Bellevue tonight I screamed at Jess to watch out for the dog running along side us on the highway.

Why don't people take care of their freakin' dogs!!! I would have a normal knee, our car would have had one less dent, and Jessica Holeman wouldn't of had to be pulled out of the ditch.

21st Century

Last night Jessica, Brent, and I were watching the Oscars. All of a sudden it dawned on me that each of us was working on our own laptop plus Brent was on the family desktop computer as well. Talk about living in the 21st century by having four computers. (or as Brent pointed out, maybe we are just nerds!!!)

2.24.05

Kickboxing Rocks!!! Today in my physical fitness class, we learned kickboxing. It's tons of fun especially watching very unathletic people!

Breakthrough of the Century

I can actually have fun at college...

1. Taylor, Heidi, and John came for dinner. We went to Olive Garden...yum!!!
2. We went to an awesome worship service.
3. Matt called. Jess and Kate sang songs to him.
4. About 20 overworked college kids took a break with catchphrase. Fun stuff.
5. Kate singing in a horrible voice...but she is just kidding. I didn't think so!
6. I found a book on Jessica's desk, "The Truth about Depression". I asked her why she had it. With a straight face she looked at me with an empty look. Then I said, "Jessica, I am really worried. We need to have a talk." Apparently her roommate Kate is doing a project on depression. However they lead me to think Jess was depressed.
7. I am witnessing a temper tantrum from my awesome cousin Kate.
8. We are on our way to Meijers...more later!
9. Back from a fun 3am trip to Meijers. There are some creepy people at the store at that time.
10. Jessica and Kate dying their hair.